light my sky: 心情日记

RETURN

Fri, 08 Aug 2008 07:26:24 GMT

Have experienced a lot of times dreaming to get 7 score in IELTS, the cruel reality finally comes to teach me something, like dream is always dream…or only dream. What does the 6.5 mean to me? The premise to Leeds or Sydney. If not, the challenge to try other universities with risk. No matter what it is, I know that’s not what I want, definitely. Whatever, it is useless to bother with the past and it is the rule to look forward. Damn the life philosophy.

Life philosophy, OK, let’s talk about the boring topic. At the beginning, we’re glad to set up the aim and faith to fulfill our life, to test our fortune, to make sense of life. But after a long time of fighting, there’re only two paths waiting: to cheer for the temporary success and set up another goal or to be hit by the temporary failure and begin to fight again. Everybody knows that the life consists of the failures and successes inevitably. But nobody wants to admit that so many times of failures could certainly hurt our original belief, especially when the similar misses with success happened time and times’ again and even can defined the failure to be fate. That’s also what life teaches us, to be tough, to move on? Or to lie to ourselves and to be pathetic in front of life.

So, it is the end of the complaint and the time for me to face the aim again. IELTS, I remember you this time, you kidded me but I promise you I must kid you back!

MY LOVE KNOT OF FAIRY TALE

Fri, 13 Jun 2008 09:11:12 GMT

“Time flies!” Yep. Every time people mention it can just lead us to face the age time and time again. Time is really a dispiteous concept, which witness your growth as well as your ageing and changes in everything around you. I still hold the tradition to celebrate the Children’s Day. You can consider it as the rejection to grow up, or rather, I just refuse to forget___ the pure time without sorrow and the simple life without worry.

Stephen King once wrote: Time takes it all, whether you want it or not. It is true. I have gotten away from cartoons for a long time, because I always have the bias that the silly actions cannot hide the cruelty in the reality. In the contrary, it just covers people’s eyes to convince us the existence of Eutopia. We wake up, then we come to realize that we have already lost our dreams, even ourselves. If you have the same idea as mine, unfortunately, you have already grown up.

I have been complaining about this robber named “time”, until I find out it actually leave us something, such as some love knots brought from our childhood. For me, maybe it is the fairy tale, and I’m sure there must be some names have already printed into our memories forever and ever.

Somebody ever told me that every girl’s childhood is a fairy tale, amazing and colorful. I have no idea because I cannot recall it any more, but what I have still remembered is all the stories that I was told by my parents about one prince and one princess and the last sentences at the end of the stories: The prince and the princess live happily together from then on..

I have enjoyed a movie named ENCHANTED, a fairy tale about a princess, typical story, happy ending as well. But what surprised me is that I was moved by the romantic story, like a child. If you asked me if I believe the fairy tales or not, I could answer you definitely that I do not. But now, if you ask me about it, my answer should be yes. Maybe inside, I have never denied that we all have the destiny to meet our Mr./Miss. Right, that there must be someone waiting for you, that actually I am also a princess.

So time takes it all, but still left something in the bottom of our hearts____ the belief in true love, kindness and happiness.

IS IT FAIR?

Mon, 26 May 2008 12:57:27 GMT

Receiving the message that certain authority of the university cancelled the ceremony hold by the broadcasting station,I cancelled the plan to study in library tonight.For the first time I have the impultion to complain,as a retired member who used to take the broadcasting station as the entirety of my college life,for the members who had been still making every effort to serve the whole university.

When it comes to the ceremony,the certain authority,you will never know the pain you have put to the broadcasting station because of your decision.It is not just a simple cancellation,it is the ignorance of the 2 months' effort from every members,it is the action to force our station to lose the credit standing in front of all the students and the sponsorship.It is the same as killing the life of a lively organization. As the executant of the ceremony last year,I was lucky to see the successful outcome of "never giving up".We had financial problem,time limit,participants' dissension,but no one tried to give up though the rain had never stopped until the provious mimute of the ceremony. Since so united we are,I dare say the ceremony this year must be more successful than ever before,we have the confidence to welcome a satisfying result,but why you deprive of the possibility?

The certain authority,please only for one time,look at the students who are working in our broadcasting station,those who can use their dining time to prepare the emergent live broadcasting,those who can sit up to write the reports for the next day,those who can reject all the appointments from other organizations to serve the station,those who can try every effort to enrich the students' campus life asking nothing in return.

But it is these students working hard like this who always bear the unfairness once and once again.When the school event happened,our reportors were not allowed to enter the conncil house.When the commendation meeting arrived,our members were always the ones who were ignored.When the daily broadcasting began according to the regulation,these students were the right ones who received the blame from the sleepy students.When urgent condition appeared,the benefits of the whole broadcasting station were the first ones can be sacrificed. The certain authority,if you ever look back on what this students' organization had suffered from,you must surprised by the strong will and the great enthusiasm of these members.

The certain authority,please answer me:IS IT FAIR?

At last,give our station song to all the present members,remember:WE ARE ALWAYS STANDING TOGETHER!

We remember the days,
We sat out together with faith?
Remember the times, so fine,
When we thought that nothing could stand in our way?
Then things weren't the same,
The life that we knew had to change
We've struggled through the darkest storms,
We thought we couldn't tame
Together we've tried,
As we stood side by side
I knew we'd build a new world,
A world of hope forever after
Deep in my heart I just know,
right from the start we will grow
Look where we are,
we've come so far and there's still a long long way to go
All of my heart, I will care.
I'll play my part, I will share
With family and friends,together we'll stand
And in the end, hand in hand,

We will get there!
So now we begin, working together to win
Believing in trust, it must be possible to overcome anything.
There's so much to do,
There's so much we can contribute
By sharing just a little love,
We will start again a new
So why don't we try?
If we stand side by side
I know we'll build a new world,
A world of hope for ever after

Deep in my heart I just know,
right from the start we will grow
Look where we are,
we've come so far and there's still a long long way to go
All of my heart, I will care.
I'll play my part, I will share
With family and friends,together we'll stand
And in the end, hand in hand,

We will get there!

GOOD WILL HUNTING

Wed, 02 Apr 2008 12:37:21 GMT

The story I want to talk about today can just tell you how to make a decision when you are in a cleft stick.The story's name:Good Will Hunting!

OK,first just image that you are a genius feeded yourself with odd job,an orphan growing up with scars,how could you be at this moment?For me,maybe close my heart and suffer from loneliness forever,or cure myself and try again to get a better live,or just have been dead for a long time.Will is the poor guy,but lucky for him,he meets Sean,who can see him,understand him and save him.

One section which impressed me a lot is the dialogue about a life philosohpy.We're always afraid to show our blemishes to the people we love as well as findout his/her blemishes.So we choose to shift off,that's the way we keep our perfection in other's mind,but in that way,we will go through our entire life without ever having to really know anybody.Is it the way you want to go through your life?My answer is NO.

So never try to hide yourself to the people you love,maybe the one you missed will become your regret for the rest of your life.What mattered is not whether you are perfect or not,the matter is whether you perfectly fit for each other.Then have you realized how to deal with the crag-fast moment?As Sean's finale choice,just put your money back on the table, see what kind of cards you get.The decision reminded me a saying:If you've never started,then you even haven't the chance to look back.

At the end of the story,Will is on his way to see about a girl and to replevy the love which he have ever tried to give up.An important advice which Will and all of us should remember is,Do what's in your heart, you'll be fine.

DISTANCE

Tue, 01 Apr 2008 02:29:11 GMT

Here's two stories about distance,which meet the same finale at the end.Share them with you!

Tom and Jenny are good friends,so close that can share everything with each other,maybe Tom have offered more.Tom can understand Jenny's feeling and all that she has done.In the other hand,Jenny can tell everything about herself to him,even can talk about the boy she likes with him,and of course,she definitely trusts him---as her friend.But one day,Tom said something strange to Jenny,which make her so uncomfortable.She can not tell why,but it is can be foreseen that their close friendship will come to the end.

Then come to the next story.Jack and Jenny were classmates long before they met each other after they've growen up.Jack saw a different Jerry from his impression that day and want to know more about her in the future.Then Jenny,could also tell everything about herself to Jack,and appreciated all his compliments. To her surprise,the same words which was told by Tom,she felt warm when heard from Jack.After all,the boy is the very person she have liked for 3 years.But a few days later,she was disappointed to find out that their topic was not that free as she had with Tom,to find out that they had to separate from each other just after he promised to treat her better than his future girlfriend,to find out that he had gotten away from her life every time she needed some one to depend on,to find out that maybe in his future,there was no room for her any more.There's such a long distance between each other so that the story have no choice but to end as tragedy.

No wonder there are so many people can just stay for a short time in others' life,all because of the distance actually.But sometimes, the person who once stepped into our lives always can never be forgotten for all of our lives.

27 Dresses

Sat, 29 Mar 2008 12:34:53 GMT

It have been a long time since the last time I enjoyed a romantic film,and today's free time just provided me with another enjoyable story:27 Dresses,directed by Anne Fletcher.

The heroine Jane,performed by Katherine Heigl,is really a people-pleaser who is used to serving as a bridesmaid in the weddings.She is idealistic, romantic and completely selfless.Due to the yearnings of the marriage,she exceeds her duties in every wedding.But kindness is the other side of recreance,she cannot hurt anyone and just stoops to compromise even when her sister planned to marry her boss,George,whom she has been in love with for years.She always thought she could get her own happiness by helping others to fullfill their wishes until Kevin came into her life.The man who pretended to be cynical actually has his own perfect assumption of marriage as well we Jane.

At the end of the story,Jane became fearless to pursue her own happiness,and spoke out "I love you" to Kevin for the first time,which put her "always-a-bridesmaid" lifestyle to an end.She at last put on her 28 dress to attend a wedding,on that wedding,nobady needed her help to hold the dress or post their cards,everything was perfect,and she didn't care,because at that mement the only thing she mattered is the person waitting for her and always looking at her at the other side of the road.

The story line is really an ord fashion but it still leave us a great expectaion towards love and marriage. And it also give us an example that the people who are always pray for others' happiness will finally receive his own felicity in return.

LONELINESS

Fri, 21 Mar 2008 13:48:37 GMT

One of my favourite books which I enjoyed recently have told me something about the cross-gender communication,and it reminded me of a phrase I have ever read on the website:"just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to,doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have!"

I just wanted to say something about "LOVE" yesterday with the title "LOVE IS EVERYWHERE",and told you something about how to felt true love with understanding.But now, I've changed my idea.Because I have just found out that sometimes love is still a luxury,for the people who are fighting for their dreams,like me,and for the people who can hardly realize how to love back in reture,like me.

So today, I can just share something about loneliness with you .

Tennessee Williams ever said:When so many are lonely,as seems to be lonely,it would be an excuse to be selfish to be lonely alone.Well,then I have the excuse.When I realize that I have already could do everything by myself,when I realize that I have already could keep everything in the bottom of my heart,when I realize that I have already could say nothing to somebody I like for a long time,you can say I have grown up of course.But no doubt,my ability of love has already degenerated at the same time.Selfish---right, maybe selfishness can also be my excuse now.

What I want to tell you is,loneliness is still a lesson as well as love.Do you always complain that the relationship have to be so hard? Let me give you the answer:because the only thing harder is being alone. You can image the picture like this:When you get a prize,nobady can share;when you rough luck,nobody will care;when you dail all the friends' numbers,nobody are there.The people is all around,but you are still standing on your own. It is just like the time have taken everyone away and left you only in the world. Then you suspect of the existence of yourself.That's not enough,what was worse, you are force to take all these tragedies as comedies and be told again and again "you are so selfish!" although you are the only victim of the struggle against loneliness.

Then told me how to choose,to love or to isolate?At last,the phrase I have said before:Love is everywhere!Just show more understanding,to love and to all the people you love!

change in life

Sun, 25 Nov 2007 14:15:03 GMT

Everyday seems to be ordinary,but I have changed a lot in these ordinary days.

I think I have passed a difficult time in my life.Unconfident---the word which has never showed up in my dictionary was taken into consideration,everything was trying to test out my belief and patience. The whole world was getting gloomy to me no matter what the weather like.The toothache,the awful interview and the depraved life,I was getting lost all the time.Seems terrible,right?

But thanks to somebady,thanks to something,my sky starts to shine again.The dark has really passed.

I am watching UGLY BETTY these days,the story about a girl who are working for a fashion magzine.It is seems to be a farce,but it's really not.The girl tells us how to pursue our dreams unremittingly,she tells us what is the true meaning of NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE.so how could I give up?I am not ugly at least.hehe~

Now it's raining outside in my city,but the sun is shining in my heart!

A poem

Thu, 15 Feb 2007 12:53:49 GMT

I heard a poem when I enjoied an old Korean TVplay these days.It had really touched me a lot.I even don't know the title of the poem,but I'm sure that just these sentences can enlighten many people.

It was published in a showcase at the bus-stop in Korea,and now,I wish to share it with you here.

To work,just like you never need money,

To love,jusy like you have never been hurt,

To live,just like today is the end of the world!

크리스마스

Sun, 24 Dec 2006 09:48:49 GMT

내 사랑하는 친구들:

안녕! 오늘은 크리스마스이에요 .

근대요, 나 지금 혼자있어.외토리다!

기속사에서 누구 도 없어.

난 너무 좋았어...옛날 생각나서...

난 참 복이 많은 아이같애..
생각해보면...모두 즐거웠던 기억들뿐이야...

난 너무 좋았어...옛날 생각나서...너희들은 어땠어..?

너희들을 전에두 사랑했구...지금도 사랑해...

가장 진실된 행복을...
너에게 줄게, 사랑하는... 내 친구!

Dare to excel

Tue, 12 Dec 2006 12:47:39 GMT

I read an article named DARE TO EXCEL written by Yang Lan---a famous host who i have admired for a long time.

It has recounted one of her experiences to be the host of a summit conference when she was invited back to the University Of Colombia.It is a discussion on the issues about women,which invited many greatest women who are playing important parts in various areas,such as politics,economy,culture and so on.

They have setted a lot of examples to show the women's power by their contribution to their country.Meanwhile they have also come up with their own idea that women can be successful.

At the end of the article,there is a sentence which rocked me a lot.That is:The way to empower women is to show them empowered women!Just like Yang Lan said,everyone have the right to show their power.Daring to excel can not only be a way to be confident but also be an attitude towards life.

my father's birthday

Sun, 29 Oct 2006 05:34:08 GMT

This tuesday is my father's birthday,but i can do nothing without saying "happy birthday"!

In my memory,our family's birthdays were just like festival, family get-together.there were always my father,my mother and me.I ate the cake with them, quenched the candles with them and also made the wishes with them.Although they were all ordinary things, they can give me endless happiness.But now,the ordinary things become to impossibility.I must stay at university away from my hometown everytime our birthday comes and get through the birthday without my parents.i'm very sorry about that,because i don't know how many birthdays left in my life that i can spend with them.
Everytime my train leave my hometown,everytime my parents wave to goodbye to me,the sadness almostly destroyes me.How much i want to stay with my parents as long as possible,but the reality is always cruel.

아버지:생일 축하합니다! 그리고 ,사랑합니다!

휴가

Sun, 01 Oct 2006 08:03:28 GMT

휴가일은 왔어요. 사실은 저는 아버지,

어머니를 너무 보고 싶어.

내 시랑하은 아버지:지금 뭐 해요?

내 시랑하은 어머니:지금 바쁘세요?

미안해요. 저는 집에 못 돌아가요.그러나,

딸은 열심히 공부하겠어.믿으십시요.

아버지,어머니:사랑합니다!

满足

Fri, 08 Sep 2006 14:18:37 GMT

我发现原来人是那么容易满足，我的生活仿佛又回到了原来的位置，或许更好。其实如释重负的感觉是这么好！我终于承认，实际上我并不是无所不能的那种人，原本的自信只会让我迷茫。我的脆弱在失望面前暴露无遗，“优秀”这个词永远都是相对的。我最终还是将那个英语节目交给了一个口语比我更优秀的播音，但是我一点也不觉得遗憾，因为我至少尝试过了去争取机会，至少发现了我的不足（很阿Q吧，但是是实话）。

为了我们组节目的质量，这是我唯一的选择，因为我是组长，我必须对我所有的组员负责，对电台的声誉负责，对所有收听我们节目的听众负责。

一等奖学金还是与我失之交臂，不知道为什么二等第一名总是我。我不是一个斤斤计较的人，这样的结局对我来说，唯一的损失是少了500块的零用钱，那得少吃多少顿饭啊！我一度怀疑辅导员对我们这种家境还算富裕的学生，在奖学金的问题上总是有所排斥，好像非要是勤工俭学的大学生才能用功学习似的。不过如果他真是对我们有偏见的话，我反而更高兴，因为比起那些需要勤工俭学的孩子，我在拥有智商，毅力的同时，还有一个让人羡慕的家庭，还是我比较优秀。比起那些做了弊还装作镇定地要奖学金的人，我也活得更潇洒。

妈妈告诉我了很多做领导的秘诀，可是有的时候想要得到一种平衡并非那么容易。我并不是很会控制自己的情绪，所以很会伤害人，特别是这些天。但我仍然很感谢那些忍受我无常的朋友，因为他们一直在我身边。

학교에서

Sun, 27 Aug 2006 13:43:42 GMT

나는 학교에 돌려왔어,

하지만 진짜로 여기에서 싫어요.

여기에서 사랑을 부모 없어.장말 슬픈다.

나는 지금 집에 돌어가고 싶어요,어떻게?

이것은 생활인가?왜 그래?

2006년 8월 27일 일요일

새한드폰

Sun, 13 Aug 2006 14:01:26 GMT

오늘 아버지,어머니하고 내가 같이 백화점에 갔어요.
우리 새한드폰 한 개 샀어요.이것은 나의 새한드폰.
우리 친구들,어때요?나는 삼성한드폰은 정말
좋아해요.예쁘다?맞아요?
나는 지금 기분이 좋아요.
아버지,어머니: 고맙습니다,사랑합니다!
2006년 8월 13일 일요일

escape

Sat, 22 Jul 2006 01:05:00 GMT

I don't know why I am always sad ,there is always a lack of something important. Just like a lonely princess embared in a castle,the only thing that she want is freedom.

I don't complain about my life.It seems to be great compared with others.But sometimes,it is really disappointing.The life is just like a web,I cannot escape from its boring and complexity.It is said that life is the replay of the history,again and again,till forever.How can I get rid of it?