light my sky

RETURN

Fri, 08 Aug 2008 07:26:24 GMT

Have experienced a lot of times dreaming to get 7 score in IELTS, the cruel reality finally comes to teach me something, like dream is always dream…or only dream. What does the 6.5 mean to me? The premise to Leeds or Sydney. If not, the challenge to try other universities with risk. No matter what it is, I know that’s not what I want, definitely. Whatever, it is useless to bother with the past and it is the rule to look forward. Damn the life philosophy.

Life philosophy, OK, let’s talk about the boring topic. At the beginning, we’re glad to set up the aim and faith to fulfill our life, to test our fortune, to make sense of life. But after a long time of fighting, there’re only two paths waiting: to cheer for the temporary success and set up another goal or to be hit by the temporary failure and begin to fight again. Everybody knows that the life consists of the failures and successes inevitably. But nobody wants to admit that so many times of failures could certainly hurt our original belief, especially when the similar misses with success happened time and times’ again and even can defined the failure to be fate. That’s also what life teaches us, to be tough, to move on? Or to lie to ourselves and to be pathetic in front of life.

So, it is the end of the complaint and the time for me to face the aim again. IELTS, I remember you this time, you kidded me but I promise you I must kid you back!

今天，用中文扫楼！

Sun, 27 Jul 2008 15:40:42 GMT

考试终于结束了，原本预备的几百个完美计划原来都不及电脑的吸引力大，奇迹般地看完了一部n年前的水木剧，断断续续下完了第四季的《one tree hill》，上网解决这段时间所有的堆积邮件……对了，今天还是我“大洗”的日子，结果一天都没怎么出太阳，摆明了欺负我！

选个话题吧！今天要给那些正在家里享受惬意的暑假时光的同志们介绍一下福州、大学城和我的新变化！（很像暑假作业的题目嘛，不过我们绝对原创哦！）

福州嘛，变化集中在市郊，也就是广大被困于大学城同胞们最熟悉的地带。金山之后，博士后之前最荒芜的路段瞬间多了几栋高楼大厦，现代建筑技术也不容小觑嘛！不过，貌似所谓的“丽景天成”、“金山大景城”等开发楼盘在我还没到大学城的时候就开始造了吧？真不容易，赶在我毕业之前竣工了！远看那几十栋楼其实还不错，特别是当你惬意地坐在606上欣赏路边风景的时候，会突然发现我们来来往往的那条路上有多了一段酷似融侨锦江的醉人美景！（个人意见，仅供参考）不过近看那些房子啊，我反而觉的比较适合做我们的宿舍楼，估计某外教又会说那是美国的高级监狱云云！

说到大学城呢，要给大家隆重介绍升级版606！在606司机怨声载道的威胁下，福州公交部门终于改善了大学生们的交通运输条件，606也变成了空调车，也就是说，以冬日通风、夏日温暖闻名的606路无人售票车也已经正式成为温室气体制造群体中的一员了！这也就算了，如今606那个造型啊，真是震撼……换新车那一天，我还真以为是某高级幼儿园出行的旅游车，怎一个可爱了得，前窗上挂了彩带、门上贴着蝴蝶结、最绝的是车身终于没有了广告，取而代之的是一张张天真无邪的笑脸，阳光还真是灿烂啊……

我呢，又恢复了以貌取人的审美阶段了，用菜菜的话说：原来我就是一个视觉动物！期末的时候看了《七音符》，忽然觉得张根锡也出奇地帅，于是终于打破了本人喜欢允浩2年多的历史记录。婷婷说我差点给了她“我很长情”的错觉，最后还是耐不住寂寞找人接班了！没办法，小帅是实在是我的style！（以前看《黄真伊》的时候怎么没有意识到呢？迟钝！）今天刚放在空间里的《如果》就是刚刚看完的《快刀洪吉童》的插曲，不知道为什么每次听到都会有点心里酸酸的感觉，是最后女主角没有选择小帅的缘故吧！其实这部连续剧的结尾很美：成千上万像流星一样的火弓箭划过夜空射向山寨，女主角说：“我们许个愿吧？”男主角回答：“这次，我们一起走！”很感人，可是因为回答的人不是张根锡，所以反而让我觉得最可悲的并不是被攻击的这群人，而是往后的日子注定要守着孤独的那个！

好久没有写中文了，感觉键盘都在背叛我的手指！哎……能写出来就不容易了，要奖励自己，明天上火车前去吃肯德基！（这好像也不算什么奖励了）原来我退化的不仅仅是审美标准嘛……

MY LOVE KNOT OF FAIRY TALE

Fri, 13 Jun 2008 09:11:12 GMT

“Time flies!” Yep. Every time people mention it can just lead us to face the age time and time again. Time is really a dispiteous concept, which witness your growth as well as your ageing and changes in everything around you. I still hold the tradition to celebrate the Children’s Day. You can consider it as the rejection to grow up, or rather, I just refuse to forget___ the pure time without sorrow and the simple life without worry.

Stephen King once wrote: Time takes it all, whether you want it or not. It is true. I have gotten away from cartoons for a long time, because I always have the bias that the silly actions cannot hide the cruelty in the reality. In the contrary, it just covers people’s eyes to convince us the existence of Eutopia. We wake up, then we come to realize that we have already lost our dreams, even ourselves. If you have the same idea as mine, unfortunately, you have already grown up.

I have been complaining about this robber named “time”, until I find out it actually leave us something, such as some love knots brought from our childhood. For me, maybe it is the fairy tale, and I’m sure there must be some names have already printed into our memories forever and ever.

Somebody ever told me that every girl’s childhood is a fairy tale, amazing and colorful. I have no idea because I cannot recall it any more, but what I have still remembered is all the stories that I was told by my parents about one prince and one princess and the last sentences at the end of the stories: The prince and the princess live happily together from then on..

I have enjoyed a movie named ENCHANTED, a fairy tale about a princess, typical story, happy ending as well. But what surprised me is that I was moved by the romantic story, like a child. If you asked me if I believe the fairy tales or not, I could answer you definitely that I do not. But now, if you ask me about it, my answer should be yes. Maybe inside, I have never denied that we all have the destiny to meet our Mr./Miss. Right, that there must be someone waiting for you, that actually I am also a princess.

So time takes it all, but still left something in the bottom of our hearts____ the belief in true love, kindness and happiness.

IS IT FAIR?

Mon, 26 May 2008 12:57:27 GMT

Receiving the message that certain authority of the university cancelled the ceremony hold by the broadcasting station,I cancelled the plan to study in library tonight.For the first time I have the impultion to complain,as a retired member who used to take the broadcasting station as the entirety of my college life,for the members who had been still making every effort to serve the whole university.

When it comes to the ceremony,the certain authority,you will never know the pain you have put to the broadcasting station because of your decision.It is not just a simple cancellation,it is the ignorance of the 2 months' effort from every members,it is the action to force our station to lose the credit standing in front of all the students and the sponsorship.It is the same as killing the life of a lively organization. As the executant of the ceremony last year,I was lucky to see the successful outcome of "never giving up".We had financial problem,time limit,participants' dissension,but no one tried to give up though the rain had never stopped until the provious mimute of the ceremony. Since so united we are,I dare say the ceremony this year must be more successful than ever before,we have the confidence to welcome a satisfying result,but why you deprive of the possibility?

The certain authority,please only for one time,look at the students who are working in our broadcasting station,those who can use their dining time to prepare the emergent live broadcasting,those who can sit up to write the reports for the next day,those who can reject all the appointments from other organizations to serve the station,those who can try every effort to enrich the students' campus life asking nothing in return.

But it is these students working hard like this who always bear the unfairness once and once again.When the school event happened,our reportors were not allowed to enter the conncil house.When the commendation meeting arrived,our members were always the ones who were ignored.When the daily broadcasting began according to the regulation,these students were the right ones who received the blame from the sleepy students.When urgent condition appeared,the benefits of the whole broadcasting station were the first ones can be sacrificed. The certain authority,if you ever look back on what this students' organization had suffered from,you must surprised by the strong will and the great enthusiasm of these members.

The certain authority,please answer me:IS IT FAIR?

At last,give our station song to all the present members,remember:WE ARE ALWAYS STANDING TOGETHER!

We remember the days,
We sat out together with faith?
Remember the times, so fine,
When we thought that nothing could stand in our way?
Then things weren't the same,
The life that we knew had to change
We've struggled through the darkest storms,
We thought we couldn't tame
Together we've tried,
As we stood side by side
I knew we'd build a new world,
A world of hope forever after
Deep in my heart I just know,
right from the start we will grow
Look where we are,
we've come so far and there's still a long long way to go
All of my heart, I will care.
I'll play my part, I will share
With family and friends,together we'll stand
And in the end, hand in hand,

We will get there!
So now we begin, working together to win
Believing in trust, it must be possible to overcome anything.
There's so much to do,
There's so much we can contribute
By sharing just a little love,
We will start again a new
So why don't we try?
If we stand side by side
I know we'll build a new world,
A world of hope for ever after

Deep in my heart I just know,
right from the start we will grow
Look where we are,
we've come so far and there's still a long long way to go
All of my heart, I will care.
I'll play my part, I will share
With family and friends,together we'll stand
And in the end, hand in hand,

We will get there!

2008.5.12

Sat, 17 May 2008 13:53:03 GMT

没有亲历过悲剧的人，其实永远都没有发言权说自己有多悲痛，也许对我们来说，震撼的只是照片上无助的眼神、镜头前绝望的哭喊，而他们经历的却是一生中最致命的伤害：羸弱的老人，当她用近乎凝固的表情面对白布下的尸体时，我们也许根本无法了解她生命余下的岁月里将要面对怎样的孤寂；天真的孩子，当他们用伤痕累累的手去触碰眼角拭不完的泪水时，可能连他们自己都无法体会“孤儿”的字眼具有多么强烈的毁灭性；当无数曾经欢乐的身影在断壁残垣下永远地失去了声音、失去了气息，没有人敢想象在欢笑的后一分钟原来死神如此临近。我们能祈祷的只是灾难早日结束，但是这几十个小时给他们留下的，却是永远也挽回不了的幸福和永远都无法治愈的伤。

从雪灾中一路走来的2008，在误解和抵制声中坚定不移的北京奥运，和还未从地震阴影中挣脱出来的四川人民，谁能来告诉中国人：我们究竟要多坚强？我们还能多坚强？我们中国人告诉你：我们会更坚强！

局外人

Sat, 19 Apr 2008 15:57:11 GMT

偶尔回忆一下写中文的日子，才发现已经被雅思折磨得失去了习惯。今天Ruben问到major的问题，才忽然觉得说出Chinese language的时候有一阵心酸。如果我说我爱英语，也许只是为了鼓励自己，或者说已经失去了兴趣去纠缠Chinese citizen还是global citizen的问题。

以前只会说没有目标的人最可悲，可是渐渐认识到目标明确却前路未知的人一样伤心，因为一样看不到明天。越来越觉得自己像一个自己生活中的局外人，对一些本该属于自己的生活也多了很多事不关己的冷漠。就像现在，实际上我根本不知道自己在写什么，每一张蓝图里筹划出来的，都像是别人的生活。

2008 Olympics,what's wrong with China?

Mon, 07 Apr 2008 12:06:03 GMT

As I had written some days before,2008 is an special year for all of Chinese people,and also for the people who have always concerned with the Olympic Games.However now,it has also caused the attention of the people who fights against peace and who keeps a bias towards China.

I have ever read an article named Western Journalists,Why You Misunderstand China? It gives many examples of the foreign journalists' misunderstanding towards China's reality.That's OK,we have different cultures and different conceptions,so it doesn't matter that you disagree with our world view,it is your right to express your idea.But after the disturbance happened in Tibet,what have you done to China?For the sake of providing yourselves with the evidence to consure China's human rights,you forged the pictures and reports to slander us and also take every chance to incite people to reject Beijing Olympics.The belief to be factualism in your journalism have been just like a feigned slogan from that moment on.Tell me,the great western journalists,why you misconstrue China?

The 2008 Olympics,which we Chinese have been looking forward for a long time,is just a symbol of peace.We only want to enjoy an international ceremony as we have done when every Olympic Game took place before. We have sent our best wishes to every host country for the success of the ceremony in former years,but this year,should we receive the gossips in return?Should all our effort to be an employable host be paid back by the absurd rejection?We won the bid to hold Olympic Games through the fair competition,why you always try to deprive it in an unfair way?We have done nothing wrong,why we should seffer from the remors because of the bias?But even when we become the victim like this,our premier still believed "the smiles of 1.3 billion people in front of the world will be reciprocated by the smiles of the people from all over the world."So please don't always criticise that there is something wrong with China,look back once in a while to think about what's wrong with yourselves?

The honorific journalists,you can suspect of China's human rights,you can suspect of China's evironmental problem,but never come to the conclusion before you see it by your own eyes.It is our responsibility to give the world a grand ceremony in 2008,and also it is your obligtion to show a real China to the world!

GOOD WILL HUNTING

Wed, 02 Apr 2008 12:37:21 GMT

The story I want to talk about today can just tell you how to make a decision when you are in a cleft stick.The story's name:Good Will Hunting!

OK,first just image that you are a genius feeded yourself with odd job,an orphan growing up with scars,how could you be at this moment?For me,maybe close my heart and suffer from loneliness forever,or cure myself and try again to get a better live,or just have been dead for a long time.Will is the poor guy,but lucky for him,he meets Sean,who can see him,understand him and save him.

One section which impressed me a lot is the dialogue about a life philosohpy.We're always afraid to show our blemishes to the people we love as well as findout his/her blemishes.So we choose to shift off,that's the way we keep our perfection in other's mind,but in that way,we will go through our entire life without ever having to really know anybody.Is it the way you want to go through your life?My answer is NO.

So never try to hide yourself to the people you love,maybe the one you missed will become your regret for the rest of your life.What mattered is not whether you are perfect or not,the matter is whether you perfectly fit for each other.Then have you realized how to deal with the crag-fast moment?As Sean's finale choice,just put your money back on the table, see what kind of cards you get.The decision reminded me a saying:If you've never started,then you even haven't the chance to look back.

At the end of the story,Will is on his way to see about a girl and to replevy the love which he have ever tried to give up.An important advice which Will and all of us should remember is,Do what's in your heart, you'll be fine.

DISTANCE

Tue, 01 Apr 2008 02:29:11 GMT

Here's two stories about distance,which meet the same finale at the end.Share them with you!

Tom and Jenny are good friends,so close that can share everything with each other,maybe Tom have offered more.Tom can understand Jenny's feeling and all that she has done.In the other hand,Jenny can tell everything about herself to him,even can talk about the boy she likes with him,and of course,she definitely trusts him---as her friend.But one day,Tom said something strange to Jenny,which make her so uncomfortable.She can not tell why,but it is can be foreseen that their close friendship will come to the end.

Then come to the next story.Jack and Jenny were classmates long before they met each other after they've growen up.Jack saw a different Jerry from his impression that day and want to know more about her in the future.Then Jenny,could also tell everything about herself to Jack,and appreciated all his compliments. To her surprise,the same words which was told by Tom,she felt warm when heard from Jack.After all,the boy is the very person she have liked for 3 years.But a few days later,she was disappointed to find out that their topic was not that free as she had with Tom,to find out that they had to separate from each other just after he promised to treat her better than his future girlfriend,to find out that he had gotten away from her life every time she needed some one to depend on,to find out that maybe in his future,there was no room for her any more.There's such a long distance between each other so that the story have no choice but to end as tragedy.

No wonder there are so many people can just stay for a short time in others' life,all because of the distance actually.But sometimes, the person who once stepped into our lives always can never be forgotten for all of our lives.

27 Dresses

Sat, 29 Mar 2008 12:34:53 GMT

It have been a long time since the last time I enjoyed a romantic film,and today's free time just provided me with another enjoyable story:27 Dresses,directed by Anne Fletcher.

The heroine Jane,performed by Katherine Heigl,is really a people-pleaser who is used to serving as a bridesmaid in the weddings.She is idealistic, romantic and completely selfless.Due to the yearnings of the marriage,she exceeds her duties in every wedding.But kindness is the other side of recreance,she cannot hurt anyone and just stoops to compromise even when her sister planned to marry her boss,George,whom she has been in love with for years.She always thought she could get her own happiness by helping others to fullfill their wishes until Kevin came into her life.The man who pretended to be cynical actually has his own perfect assumption of marriage as well we Jane.

At the end of the story,Jane became fearless to pursue her own happiness,and spoke out "I love you" to Kevin for the first time,which put her "always-a-bridesmaid" lifestyle to an end.She at last put on her 28 dress to attend a wedding,on that wedding,nobady needed her help to hold the dress or post their cards,everything was perfect,and she didn't care,because at that mement the only thing she mattered is the person waitting for her and always looking at her at the other side of the road.

The story line is really an ord fashion but it still leave us a great expectaion towards love and marriage. And it also give us an example that the people who are always pray for others' happiness will finally receive his own felicity in return.

SOCIAL RESPONSIBILITY

Thu, 27 Mar 2008 12:37:21 GMT

Opened the magazine,the news of German tax fraud scandal suddenly came into my eyes.The investgation surprised many people and a few famous person were also embroiled including ex-Deutsche Post chief executive Klaus Zumwinkel.The German banking is suffering from the fluctuation because of the event.In addition,the subprime lending crisis in America,the shakeout of the Asian stock market.What's happened in the earth to the global economy?

Then go back to the tax fraud,we have to pay attention to the serious social problem,because it happened everywhere besides Germany.The phenonmenon of tax dodging tax dodging have already has a long history all around the world.When will this kind of crime come to an end?

Maybe you will say it have nothing to do with me now,that's why I can speak with justice.But that's also the reason why I can talk about it fairly.

I dare to say,it is the consequence of greed,it is the ignorance of social responsibility.

We are just aware that we have created wealth for the society,but we forget that the resource we use to create also comes from the society.We are just aware that we need to make a living for ourselves,for our families,but we forget that the sosiety,which we are living in,also need us to contribute ourselves.

If you believe you will never meet a thief,so you don't need a police.Ok,don't hand in your tax,and next time you really met the thief,you would definitely lose the right to complain.Until then you would realize that you are thief of the society too.If you believe you can drive a car rather than bus,so you reject to hand in your tax.That's ok,but you would quickly get to know that your car is useless because there's no traffic already.Till now,you still refuse to ratepay?

As we all know,ratepaying is our obligation for we are living in the society,we are all have the sociality.So be responsible to the society,and the society will pay you back sooner or later.

LIFE

Mon, 24 Mar 2008 13:21:02 GMT

Today's topic is---life.

First I must say something to commomerate my lavender seeds,which were given by Zhizhi as a birthday present.I can still remenber her wishes going with the present:I am just going to train you to be a virtuous wife in the future,so treat the seeds carefully.Actually speanking,I poured almost my love on the seeds,and did everthing follow the instruction.8 days later,the seeds seemed quite quiet,of course,didn't burgeon at all.There is no doubt,my poor seeds have just slept in the dust in this way.I just consider today to be their fete-day,but maybe they've already been dead 8 days before.Whatever,besides sadness,it have proved that I really haven't the potential to be a virtuous wife,just the same as Zhizhi's complaint.

Then here is my idea towards the tragedy,I just thought Zhizhi lead me to Provence on my birthday,but by now I have realized,she just gave me the sense of expectation of a new life ,and the life is always the symble of hope,too.

Life,um…a box of chocolate?Yep,but far more than chocolate,I think.Because sometimes it contains a nation's wrath and suffering.It was the fifth anniversary of the Iraq war a few days ago.We can still count the number of the days,But we cnnot count the lives lost in the flames of war.Then what is the meaning of the life,for the people who have lost their families,or for the people who have already lost their lives.

The inculpable residents,just for the inculpable residents.Military commanders?Who cares?But the people who are just praying for the ordinary peaceful life are force to face the death whenever it is and wherever they are.Life,the conception which they can taste for a long time the days before,can simply ended in one mimute now.When will the war come to an end?As they mark the fifth anniversary,who can tell them if there still will be a sisth anniversary?

The comments on the Iraq war reminded me of a speech given by Betrand Russell named Shall We Choose Death?He said at the end of the speech:"I appeal,as a human being to human beings:remember your humanity,and forget the rest.If you can do so,the way lies open to a new paradise,if you cannot,nothing lies before you but universal death."

Cherish your life,can it just be a phrase?Should it just be a wish?NO,the insistence on it is the real meaning of life.

LONELINESS

Fri, 21 Mar 2008 13:48:37 GMT

One of my favourite books which I enjoyed recently have told me something about the cross-gender communication,and it reminded me of a phrase I have ever read on the website:"just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to,doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have!"

I just wanted to say something about "LOVE" yesterday with the title "LOVE IS EVERYWHERE",and told you something about how to felt true love with understanding.But now, I've changed my idea.Because I have just found out that sometimes love is still a luxury,for the people who are fighting for their dreams,like me,and for the people who can hardly realize how to love back in reture,like me.

So today, I can just share something about loneliness with you .

Tennessee Williams ever said:When so many are lonely,as seems to be lonely,it would be an excuse to be selfish to be lonely alone.Well,then I have the excuse.When I realize that I have already could do everything by myself,when I realize that I have already could keep everything in the bottom of my heart,when I realize that I have already could say nothing to somebody I like for a long time,you can say I have grown up of course.But no doubt,my ability of love has already degenerated at the same time.Selfish---right, maybe selfishness can also be my excuse now.

What I want to tell you is,loneliness is still a lesson as well as love.Do you always complain that the relationship have to be so hard? Let me give you the answer:because the only thing harder is being alone. You can image the picture like this:When you get a prize,nobady can share;when you rough luck,nobody will care;when you dail all the friends' numbers,nobody are there.The people is all around,but you are still standing on your own. It is just like the time have taken everyone away and left you only in the world. Then you suspect of the existence of yourself.That's not enough,what was worse, you are force to take all these tragedies as comedies and be told again and again "you are so selfish!" although you are the only victim of the struggle against loneliness.

Then told me how to choose,to love or to isolate?At last,the phrase I have said before:Love is everywhere!Just show more understanding,to love and to all the people you love!

EDUCATE OURSELVES

Thu, 20 Mar 2008 15:28:14 GMT

I have taken a lecture given by a Canadian today.He spoke about something which really moves me a lot.Yeah,that's educating ourselves.

He said the university should be just like a universe,the aggregation of information and the idea.So that's why we should educate ourselves more actively and forwardly that we all have the job to know what's going on!

I think it is absolutely right thought it is just fitting for the foreign culture identity---Be responsible to yourself, then be responsible to the world. We are parts of the history and we should know what happened around us,not only just to look back on the history taken the side of a person in future.So look back on your past life,have you ever care about the world happening before?If not,do from now on.

Then the question is how.No doubt reading is the only way,not only by your eyes but also by your head and your heart.To know more kinds of point of view,then work up your own standpoint,and then ,we will be more closer to the truth and nearer to the world.

Following the song:Educate ourselves,We can and will work the fields,We can and will police ourselves,We can and will create and build Organise! Here's the rest of our lives!Do you agree?Then JUST DO IT!

how could we deal with everything?

Thu, 20 Mar 2008 06:27:30 GMT

I have overcome a period of downturn these days while my country is still experiencing the difficult time.

The disarster of snow,the turbulence of the stock market,the disturbances in Tibet,the murder happened on the Chinese students abroad in France and the long-time separate between mainland of China and Taiwan.Too many tragedies are stricking the whole China as well as the base line of every Chinese's endurance.How could we deal with everything ?

2008 is a special moment for China, which we have looking forward for really a long time.But it seems that nothing goes well.We are only praying for a propitious year, a peaceful environment and an integrated homeland.Could all these pure-hearted wishes can only be changed into ceaseless despairs?

NO,we must welcome a brand new day tomorrow.we believe so and have implicit faith in the sincerity of all Chinese people.We all have the moments of desperation.But when we face them head on,that's when we find out just how strong we really are.Then if you ask me how we could deal with everthing again.I will tell you:we Chinese,will hold together to overcome every difficult moment with steadfast belief and courage.

期末两三天

Thu, 24 Jan 2008 13:23:18 GMT

期末考试结束了，就像是刚刚打完一场持久战，又像是刚刚谈完一场漫长的恋爱，漫长到彼此之间已经没有了爱情，只剩习惯！

原定明天上节目的计划因为人大调整到了的今天，让人整个一天都变得很忙碌。下午刚考完试，赵师傅的车已经停在了北门，匆匆忙忙把我接到台里上节目。本来以为一定会迟到，但是到了直播间才发现在路上前后只用了半个小时。现在终于知道有自己的车有什么好，如果是坐公交从大学城出来，半个小时我可能还在金山。

6点钟节目结束，如释重负的心情让人恨不得立刻找个城市去流浪，这个学期的一切都结束了，唯一的后遗症就是总是会有群闲人在关心你的成绩，为了奖学金。奖学金，每次一提到这个词就觉得自己是个俗人，可是为了能让自己潇洒的去旅游又不得不让自己俗起来。

为了刷光卡上的钱今天的晚餐显得格外丰盛，也宣告着我减肥计划的告吹。回到寝室已经快8点，空空如也的寝室让人有种人去楼空的沧桑感，而我知道这只是幻觉，有人开开心心地回家了，也有人高高兴兴地郎情妾意去了，留下孤孤单单的我，习惯性地接受电脑的辐射。

新浪的博客似乎是一昔之间取消了我所有的代码，让人完全没有心情写东西，亏我曾经还那么激动地从MSN里搬出去，真是浪费感情。

手机里收到的短信又开始变得千篇一律，不过已经没有人会问“什么时候回家”这类没有营养的问题，而是个个都在提醒你家里很冷，回来要多穿衣服，让人觉得很温馨。看来我也不算是贪得无厌的那种人，原来被感动也这么容易！

婷婷约我回家后去看电影，我随口就说了一句：“跟你一起看情调多差”，结果遭到她一番重色情友的训导。忽然想起今天考试前跟上官开的玩笑。先是李斌把一个笑话的主人公改成了上官，说是有个女生向上官表白，最后问上官“你不喜欢我哪一点，我改！”而上官回答“你喜欢我那一点，我也改！”接着“我改”就成了大家的口头禅。原来一种文化的传播可以这么迅速，而也很容易被淡忘。当大家都没有再把这个词挂在嘴边的时候，上官忽然跟我提到了女生择偶的标准问题，说是我们要求“有男子气盖又温柔体贴，彬彬有礼而又不能太过文雅”的要求本来就是悖论，而之后又转念告诉我他就是这种人，于是我也随口留了一句“上官，你都改了吧！”话音刚收才发现周围已经笑倒了一片人。

今天去打印了很多琴谱，可能是不想再让自己回家看到钢琴的时候有负罪感。也开始不断地向MP4和电脑里塞电影，这好像已经成了放假前的例行公事，还有去买杂志，为了预备我回家后奢侈糜烂的小资生活。什么叫及时行乐，什么叫活在当下，现在做的事情哪一项是为了今天，都有点像自欺欺人的口号！真有点受不了自己，解放了还这么忧心忡忡。好吧，就算是一切都为了明天，我也该去收拾行李了！

2008年的开始

Sat, 19 Jan 2008 14:59:44 GMT

2008到来的时候，我们都在电台里比任何人都清晰地听着厚重的钟声，接着就是一个不眠夜。

08年的第一个日出，我在电台冰冷的阳台上看着两个“强说愁”的家伙惬意地吐着“甜甜圈”，接着就是新年的第一天。

总是习惯给自己一个仪式，可是2008年的一切都开始得不知不觉。即使这样也竟然没觉得失去了什么，也许是自己也厌倦了这种自欺欺人的把戏。其实从来都不记得新年的第一天许过什么愿望，所以即使没有实现也不会觉得失望，怪不得我总是过得这么开心！

这段时间身体很不好，晚上只能无聊地看着窗外生活区里的昏黄的路灯，和大学城没有星星却隐约可以看到云的夜空。我现在可以越来越准确地预测钟楼的钟声和天亮的时间，要不然潇洒地捧着电脑看着几百年前从FTP里下下来的电影等待日出。写出来才发现原来我的生活这么浪漫！没敢在新浪的博客里写这些话，因为我知道老爸老妈是那里的常客，而这边，因为写了太多的外语他们也该放弃阅读了。最怕他们知道我身体不好，因为以前在家我睡不着的时候，他们也从来没有安稳地睡过觉。只要他们不知道，我就从不觉得生病是一种痛苦。我的生活太顺利，才会有这么多小插曲。没有阻力的世界，缺乏感人的戏剧张力！

福州，从我见到它的第一眼起就没见他下过雪。因为生病的原因，我一向不大喜欢冬天，一年中最恐怖的季节，因为福州不会下雪也褪去了最后一层浪漫的色彩。冰冷的空气，刺骨的寒风，太阳还不时地散发出暧昧的温度，这就是福州的冬天，没有雪却一片苍白。每到期末就会异常地想家，起码家里的冬天没有这么单调！可是学校就是不爱成人之美，寒假前的期末考总是会洋洋洒洒拖上一个月，非把人逼出病来不可！还有一群无聊的孩子会乐此不疲地用“怎么还没放假？”的短信刺激着我，也就是有这样无聊的我会始终乐此不疲地被他们刺激着！

说到回家，又要提到那个亘古不变的老话题。每次只有春运的时候我才能感觉到自己是一个莘莘学子，而今年面对春运的弱势群体刚好就是我们这些莘莘学子们。原打算25号开溜的计划被扼杀在了摇篮里，省台居然要我上25号晚上的直播节目，而刚好26号的机票已经一票难求，只剩下几张头等舱的，这学期做了太多败家的事情，再做这种奢侈的事也实在是于心不忍，只好乖乖坐火车。之前说过我一向过得很顺利，所以即使在这样票源危机的时候我也照旧买到了卧铺，因为一个可怜的学弟凌晨两点来排队才惠及了我们这群姗姗来迟的人。回生活区的一路上，沿着排队的长龙走了良久，每一个人都虎视眈眈地盯着我手中的票，让人莫名地想到朱自清的《背影》。这就是可怜的莘莘学子们！

这两天没有考试，我的生活也变得十分清闲，单身汉就是这样，好在我们宿舍可不只我一个人这么清闲。老妈在这件事上一向很搞笑，前不久还发短信说晚上有流星雨，让我别忘了许个愿让白马王子早点出现。世界上哪有这么多白马王子，考完了《文学概论》我会告诉你：“灰姑娘和白马王子”那是大众文学的一种模式！不过这也只是说说而已，还是偶尔会做做这样的梦，毕竟情人节自己吃巧克力也是一种悲惨！

我的2008就是这样开始的，期待接下来的故事吧！

Veronica Mars

Mon, 10 Dec 2007 12:46:57 GMT

Veronica Mars---not a friend of mine,but i'd like to be a friend of her! HAHA,just a joke!It is just the heroine of an American TV play,a cool girl's name.

Veronica Mars,yep,she is pretty cool.She can try every way to find the clew,try every effort to help her friends and abandon herself to invertigation with the plea "damn my curiosity".Brightness,check!Braveness,check!Justice,check!Plus a little bit fine-looking,OK,she is a perfect girl.

Friendship,scholarship…It really remind me of the passed high school life and the boring college life.What all she has to do is to solve the doubtful case in Neptune,help her friends with their family problem and also work hard for the scholarship to be ready to the university.wonderful,uuh? whatever,it's her life.Oh,I almost forgot,maybe I'm not interested in the case at all,because the whole things must come to obvious at last.What I care about is her love story with Duncan Kane and Logan Echolls.It is the point.

Allow me to ignore Duncan for the time being,he is really not my style.Although he is very excellent and get Veronica's love from his appearance to disappearance.Fortunately,he went away with his bastard ant the end of season 2.Somewhat sad for Veronica,but why I said FORTUNATELY?Well,because his leave helps Veronica fulfill the love story with Logan. Logan Echolls---no doubt,he is my style.

Logan---playboy.It is past tense .We can say he became mature when he fell in love with Veronica. Empressement,check! Consideration,check! Trustiness,check!Just a little bit hotheaded,that's because Veronica is in danger.OK,this cute guy---charm 100 point.But to my disappointment,they broke up at the end of season 3 though Logan was still loving her.Really a pity.

Now it is the time to go back to my own life---just continue with my study.

Goodbye Logan,Goodbye Veronica Mars!

change in life

Sun, 25 Nov 2007 14:15:03 GMT

Everyday seems to be ordinary,but I have changed a lot in these ordinary days.

I think I have passed a difficult time in my life.Unconfident---the word which has never showed up in my dictionary was taken into consideration,everything was trying to test out my belief and patience. The whole world was getting gloomy to me no matter what the weather like.The toothache,the awful interview and the depraved life,I was getting lost all the time.Seems terrible,right?

But thanks to somebady,thanks to something,my sky starts to shine again.The dark has really passed.

I am watching UGLY BETTY these days,the story about a girl who are working for a fashion magzine.It is seems to be a farce,but it's really not.The girl tells us how to pursue our dreams unremittingly,she tells us what is the true meaning of NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE.so how could I give up?I am not ugly at least.hehe~

Now it's raining outside in my city,but the sun is shining in my heart!

The 2007 CCTV Cup English Speaking Contest

Mon, 24 Sep 2007 18:53:44 GMT

The 2007 CCTV Cup English Speaking Contest in our university was over,and i got the eighth prize in the final contest.Although I'm not satisfied with the result,but it is not bad actually. I just thought that I can do it better.

I have studied English for a whole week to prepare for the speech,it is really terrible for me.I have never been so absorbed in English even before the CET6 Examination.But it really happened.I feel rich during the week,i am used to read the English book,am used to scan the English web.It changed my life totally.But I like this change.Because of this contest,i have fell in love with English study and also have learned much unconsciously.So i say,it worth paying out.

To tell the truth,I'm extremely disappointed with the result,not because the reslut itslef,but the sorriness behind the result.During this week,I have heard too much snooty words just like: you cannot … or you just …with the GOD's help,which really hurt me a lot.I want to prove that I have the ability to do a good job,just by myself,without anyone's help.But there is nobody wanting to trust me,nobady wanting to admit my real faculty.

The contest is over for me,but the hurt is continuing.I really wish that I can forget the scorn forever after I wake up tomorrow morning! REALLY!

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